Captain's Personal Log, Supplemental (MD146)

Posted on Sun Jun 23rd, 2019 @ 10:17pm by Captain Kayla Desai-Scott

Captain's Personal Log, Supplemental.

Starfleet Captain's often speak of loyalty among their people. All the greats; Archer, Pike, Kirk, Picard, Sisko, Janeway - they all inspired bravery, trust and loyalty in their people. A sense of loyalty and duty that meant they would do anything for their captain, even risk their lives on the alter of freedom. After all, loyalty means nothing unless it has at its heart the absolute principle of self-sacrifice. Today I experienced loyalty in a way that I had never experienced before and never wish to experience again. Faced with insurmountable odds, I prepared to pay the ultimate price, to give my life for my crew in order to allow them to escape our enemy and live on. To live to fight another day. I was prepared to go down with my ship, the way any good Captain should...

...but my good friend Juros, my dear, dear friend, had other ideas. Juros Brenn, a Commander of Starfleet and my executive officer, sacrificed himself so that I might live, so that I might live to bring some sort of meaning to this chaos we find ourselves in. An act of defiance, yes, but an act of loyalty that I can never repay, no matter how hard I may try. Yet try I shall, to ensure that his ultimate act of sacrifice was not in vain.

Juros was not on his own today. So many have given their lives in the pursuit of Federation ideals of peace and freedom from tyranny. These martyrs should be remembered for decades to come, for without them, I would not be here to record this log and this crew would not stand ready to defend the sanctity of the Federation dream once more.

*smirk* Martyr. The concept of a “martyr” has been distorted through the years. The word originally meant “witness” in Greek and evolved to mean one who would hold fast to their ideals in the face of oppression. Witnessing evolved into passive resistance. Now, it appears that the word signifies active resistance to oppression and, further, active promotion of one’s ideals even to the point of sacrificing one’s life. These martyrs believed wholeheartedly in our way of life and gave theirs to preserve it. Now, not all of us are called to die a martyr’s death, but all of us are called to have the same spirit of self-sacrifice and love to the very end as these martyrs had. Those of us left behind will do everything in our power to remember our loved ones, for that is all we have left now; memories. Memories of their lives and their achievements, but now, we have inscribed a new memory alongside those others. It's a memory of tragedy and shock, of loss and mourning. But not only of loss and mourning. It's also a memory of bravery and self-sacrifice, and the love that lays down its life for a friend... even a friend whose name they never knew.

You see, while I barely knew Captain Drayton, nor Commander Neprem, I did know Juros Brenn. To say he was brave does not do his memory justice. There are so many ways to be brave in this world. Sometimes bravery involves laying down your life for something bigger than yourself, or for someone else. Sometimes it involves giving up everything you have ever known, or everyone you have ever loved, for the sake of something greater.

But sometimes it doesn't.

Sometimes bravery is nothing more than gritting your teeth through pain of waking up, going to work and doing your best, whilst always knowing that others have died so that you might live...

That is the sort of bravery I must have now...