Captain's Log, Mission Day 146, 1000 Hours

Posted on Sun Mar 10th, 2019 @ 8:48pm by Captain Colby Drayton

To say that the last month or so has been a severe test for this crew is more than a mere understatement. This crew has had to deal with some of the harshest realities that life could throw at them; betrayal, guilt, pain, suffering... and loss. I was once told that there are eight harsh realities that we must face in our lifetimes. In the last few weeks, we have all faced these different realities.

The World Will Never Quit Poking You. Most people make the error of thinking that one day it will be done. They think, “If I can work enough, then one day I could rest.” Or, “I’m only doing this now so that one day I can do what I really want with my life.” The error is to think that eventually, things will be different in some fundamental way. They won’t. It never ends. As long as life continues, the creative challenge is to tussle, play, and make love with the present moment while giving your unique gift.
Have you ever felt like your circumstances were trying to break you? Just when you’ve earned that great promotion, you find out its not all its cracked up to be. You wake up on the wrong side of the bed, come to work to a nagging boss and go home to an indifferent spouse. Every time you take a step forward, you take three back. Inevitably, just as you’re on the rise, something or someone tries to knock you down. If only life would give you a little bit of a break, you tell yourself, you’d have enough energy to make an effort to become successful. Deep down, you believe success provides an escape from life’s problems. You figure if you had enough latinum, freedom, and positive experiences in your life…the bullshit would stop. It doesn’t and it never will. In fact, when you push to do something outside of the box — change career, write a book, become an artist, carve your own route — not only will things get worse before they get better, you’ll still have to work to maintain what you’ve achieved.

People of all walks of life have problems. The man in the galley has problems, your senior officer, even the President of the Federation all have problems. Around every corner, just when you think you’ve won, life will find a way to see what you’re made of. But there’s beauty in the struggle of life when you look at it the right way. When life tests you, you get the chance to prove you’re resilient. One of the deepest levels of satisfaction comes from knowing how strong you are. Few memories are better than those of overcoming struggles, persisting, and absorbing pressure and turning it into fuel instead of letting it break you.

Realizing the world will constantly test you removes the element of surprise. When you find yourself in a bad spot, it feels doubly worse because you didn’t see it coming. Know that life is preparing its next right hook, but as Jim Rohn said, “Don’t wish it was easier. Wish you were Better. Don’t wish for fewer problems. Wish for more skills.”

Our first reaction to pain and hardship — mine included — is to dwell on how much it sucks. A few of us, however, realize there’s an opportunity to be had. It’s easy to say and difficult to do, but if you can learn how to transform pain into purpose you’ll feel a type of happiness that is ten times better than the feeling of having a life devoid of difficulties. Maybe our purpose in life isn’t to feel good. Maybe we’ve been placed here to see what we’re made of.

In the last few weeks, I've seen what my people are made of. Despite only being in command of the Nogura for a short time, I've come to realise that I couldn't ask for a finer bunch of people to be working with. Working with, sounds funny to say it like that. On the Ulysses, it was very much a case of commanding and leading from the front, yet maintaining a distance and mystique, but here it is very different. Here, we work together. Here, we face whatever challenges we are dealt with together, and we come out the other side together. It doesn't matter if you are a Crewman in the Galley or the senior staff on the bridge, in the last fourteen or so days, EVERYONE has come together and contributed to getting us through some pretty trying times. For me, its been a wake up call. Perhaps I didn't do things right the first time, on the Ulysses. Maybe distancing myself from my people wasn't the best decision. Here, I can see that the crew thrive when they are a team... no, scratch that, when they are a family. When they strive together, they thrive together.

Recent events remind me of something my father once told me; you should never say that you can't do something, or that something seems impossible, or that something can't be done, no matter how discouraging or harrowing it may be; our many great species are limited only by what we allow ourselves to be limited by: our own minds. We are each the masters of our own reality; when we become self-aware to this: absolutely anything in the world is possible.

Master yourself, and become king of the world around you. Let no odds, chastisement, exile, doubt, fear, or ANY mental virii prevent you from accomplishing your dreams. We can never be a victim of life... instead, it is up to us to become it's conqueror.

In the last two weeks, the crew of the Nogura took on life itself, and by god did they conquer it... and I'm damn proud to have been here to witness it.